shit that shit...

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I never thought it ended like this. He just doesn’t know how I feel. I asked him to make a video for me from my graduation’s pictures. It was about a year ago, I always remind him to make it for me. I do understand that he was so busy about his work, but yesterday I just find out he was uploaded many pictures and videos of his band which is taken two days ago. How should I feel ha? Can you guys explain it to me? When I asked him who is more important, me or his band, he answered it was SAME. Man! It’s a wrong answer. I never want to be the same like anybody, or even his friends. You know, I mean how can I same? It was logically insane!!! Does he ever think that I’m special? It feels hurt when he did that to me. I hope someday he know why I’m mad with is answer. For now, I do really wanna scream as loud as I can.
Do I have to pay his time that wasted for me? I just need to be loved and care. Please dear, don’t do this to me. It kills me. I love u,, I do love u..

Human Rights? yea yea..

Last Saturday, I have an ethic class with the guest speaker is Mr. Hermien R. Sarengat at Prof. Dr. Djayusman auditorium. She’s the CEO or GE (General Electric) Technology Indonesia. She was talking about the GE’s system, from all the system she told; there is one thing that really makes me love to hear her. She told us that GE never underestimate people, it may even exist when they try to hire an employee. They are not even mention trash like this:

• Female, single, max 25 years old.
• Bachelor s1
• Experienced in Marketing at least 1 year
• Able to work under pressure, hard worker, aggressive
• Attractive, Communicative, and good manner
• Minimum height 165cm

For some point, maybe people think that those requirements are working. But have you ever think before that is it not fair enough for others?

By put female or male requirements, it means that you are already underestimate people which people think that you separated the job desk based on the gender.

By put the age you also close the opportunity for ages above 25 to not have chance to have a job, you never know human’s brain and people’s ability. You cannot measure people maturity based on their age.

Bachelor or education level is quite helpful when you apply for a job. Then again, you cannot guarantee that that person is capable for the job. There are a lot of talented people out there that never experiencing school but they have abilities and skills that can produce something and earn much money.

Your experiences is also needed as an assets for your CV but sometimes what we learn in school is very far from the reality. I always said to my friends; don’t be afraid to try something new because there’s always a first time for everything.

I have no problem with point number four, but they don’t have to put it anyway. People already should know that there is no job without a pain.

Communicative and aggressive are okay with me, because we have to communicate our job nicely and aggressive with your job because it is related to your salary. But attractive and your high? It sounds ridiculous; does a human’s height affect your brain’s work? Huff... how can people live with those stupid rules?

Mrs. Hermien told us that in GE, they hired a man on a wheel chair and he can do his job perfectly (remembering that in GE everything should be following the system). This is what Indonesian people MUST learn, that they cannot alienated people by gender and freakish requirements. Do you realize that woman is a super multitasking creature? Have you ever watch “little people, big world”?

HAVE YOU EVER LEARN RESPECTING OTHERS?

It also happens with my boo’s daughter, she’ll be five in five days. She’s very smart, her teacher told us that she can jump into a bigger class, but then again, Indonesian regulation is very useless and stupid. They made an obligation for kids whose on 6 years old are able to enter the elementary school, beside that, what they do is waiting until next year. How many people born 6 months ahead in one year? Why they should wait until their age is 6 or 6, 5 when they are able to absorb the knowledge that they get? When the children have a good improvement, why the government is on the downgrade? This is getting under control.

Inconsistently Sign

I know some people said that rules are made to breached, but how about this one?

I went to my favorite coffee shop at Fatmawati with my boo. We sat on high chair that I actually not comfort with. I ordered Ice Frappe Caramel and he ordered a hot latte. Before our drinks being sent, there are two guys who had finished their payment and leave the place. We moved to their place which there is two chairs with comfy cushion. We brought books to read, he read Masako that tells about Japanese Princes and I read Heroin Diaries by Nikki Sixx-Motley Crue. When our drinks arrived, I was laughing. Why? Because they using a glass base with a “non-smoking” picture on it. What a freakish sign.

I mean, we’re both smoking and even all people inside the café were smoking. What happen to this country? I mean is, it’s a contrary things happen here. Or maybe it’s only a joke, to make people aware that smoking is a bad habit in funny ways.

amazing brain

For almost every midnight, there's an airplane passing above my roof. I always play a game with my boo named "10 seconds", because our houses are very close, it only needs 10 seconds for the airplane flew from my house to his house. I tell it to my friends, luckily only Mala has the same experience with me. It needs 30-40 seconds for an airplane flying from my house to her house. Today, it happens again. Mala says that she's so afraid if the engine's sounds of the airplane is too noise. We're afraid that the plane is too close from our roof and bad things will happen (air crash). Oh Gosh,, i hope it won't happen AGAIN in everywhere! Mala feels amazed with pilot who can flying the plane and do navigation up in the air. Well, i also think like that, i mean it is tons of kilograms drifting in the air. She keeps asking who is the founder of air navigation. Myself, i don't know the answer. The conversation becomes a scientific conversation. I said to her that God creates us perfectly, we can absorb thousands of data which chains together as information and if you add some meaning to it, it will known as knowledge.

This is our conversation at YM:
music_ismyradar : keren jg ya jadi pilot
music_ismyradar : bisa nyetir pesawat

sitisarah_lspr : iyah
sitisarah_lspr: keren
sitisarah_lspr : di udara cuy,, ga ada landasannya
sitisarah_lspr : gendeng yah kl dipikir2
sitisarah_lspr : pelayar juga,, besi berton2 bisa ngapung di aer
sitisarah_lspr : ediaaaaannn tenan rek

music_ismyradar: iyaahh
music_ismyradar : gw bingung siapa yg nemuin alat navigasinya ya?

sitisarah_lspr : iyah

music_ismyradar : biar kaga nyasar
music_ismyradar : ck ck ck

sitisarah_lspr : giling yah?
sitisarah_lspr: see, otak manusia tuh hebat bgt
sitisarah_lspr : bisa nampung segtu byk ilmu pengetahuan

music_ismyradar : yah itulah yg bedain manusia sama makhluk Tuhan lainnya

She was right, brain is the only thing that can differentiate God's creature than else. So, be happy people, you are lucky created as human being, feel grateful with what you've got use it wisely an responsibly.

find ur good guy

I woke up at 12.13 today, it was a lazy day. I'm dreamed about kidnapping and runaway, while i was dreaming, someone's voice is humming in my dream. Rite, it was "iyu jamu" who woke me up and saying "dek, jamu ga dek?" Damn!! i cannot sleep again. I turn on the tivo at my ontie's room and watch indonesian movie FTV, i forgot the title. It tells about how hard a guy to explain his feeling to a girl. He needs help from his friend. He practice his speech with his friend (boy) until somebody catch them holding hands together. That's the story begin, he was captured as a gay at campus, short story, there is another guy who likes the girl too. He's the one who's making story about gay things. Before the girl knew, she was upset because she thinks that she's been fooled. Her bestfriend said "maybe u should find ur bad guy before u meet the good one". Then the bad guy came, gave her tissue bla bla, until the truth is revealed.
What i'm trying to say is, love is gambling. Maybe u can find the right person in ur first time lover but maybe u wouldn't. Founded by love is better than u find ur love. I already have my love now, and he found me.

He Breaks the Curse

Eventually, today is not a really good day for me. I'm starting it with snoozed my alarm 5 times (because my friend text me that the meeting was pending until 11am) it was happen until my driver came to my house in condition i just realize that he has to pick me up.. bwehehe.. I get a shower, then i do make up, bla bla bla, went to my mom's office dropped her lunch and straight to Balai Kartini. I thought i was late, but i didn't. We start the meeting and the bla and the bla and the bla.. the result is, i'm bitching all the time. After the meeting, i have to meet one of my girls at plaza semanggi, i went there with my classmates. She has a broken heart, trully medley deeply. I'm trying to be as cheap as i can for her. I cannot stand to see a girl with dark, blue, lame heart because of a boy. I feel sorry for her because she met a jerk in her life. But i'm also sorry for my self because her experience open my past in a glance. We both almost crying, but it cured with four foreign guys which are sat behind us. hihihihihi. The stupiest thing is, my cell phone's battery is low, then i charged it in someone else table, after waiting for almost two hours i just found out that the battery was not charging.. arrghhh!!! I also had clash with my friend, well,,, actually it's just a missunderstanding between us. But i wont say an apologizing. I left plaza semanggi on 5 pm, before we walking around and bought a bag and shoes, damn!! I hate when those things are tempting!! When arrived on campus, there was only 6 people in class, what a huge class. This is the most exciting part,, i text my bf that i will come to his office after class, so we can go home together. U know what?! He calls me, he ask me to go out with him, we will watching a movie at the cinema. Whew,, my heart is blooming in a second. He's a perfect desert for my day, he breaks the bad cursed for my long day. Love u pipi

my boo boo

PIPI!!! I always called him like that, it is lovely bunchy munchy nickname for my boo-boo. I love him more and more everyday. Today, i was visiting him and i found him sitting on his chair and playing football manager or what(i dunno the name). I continuing made my laptop soft case beside him. Somehow, i got tired then i went to his bedroom, taking his iPod and watching "Quantum Leaps" serial. I lay down on his bed and plugging the headset to my ear. About 30 minutes, my bf enter the room and he slept beside me, guess what?!! He's sleeping!! And snoring too!! Oh my gosh,, very annoying, i tried to increase the volume but his noise is won. I'm trying to keep on that room for an hour, but the sound makes me wanna die, i stand up and leave the room. I went back to the living room and trying to online. But then again, suddenly he's following me, oh man. I cannot stand to see his baby face, then he ask me to go home, i said okay. i o really want to kiss him right on his lips, but i' too busy with my YM, heheh.. I know he knows i love him and i know he loves me too (more than me sumtime)..